Unable to Sleep

Blegh. It's incredible how one made up word can describe how someone is feeling!

So as the title of this post says, I can't sleep. You might be able to describe me as a bit of a nervous wreck right now, as I have to meet with my PO today. On that note, I want to extend a thanks to those of you who commented my last entry. I really appreciate the well-wishing you guys give, it helps a lot.

BUT...today is not going to be fun. I have to meet with the PO, go drop a UA, then work. Now the UA I'm not worried about, because I have nothing to hide. However, it does upset me a great deal that this officer makes me take them. I was not charged or convicted of a drug crime. I never have been. It's upsetting that every time she makes me drop, I literally piss away $18 into a cup, when I hardly ever have the $18 to begin with!!! But oh well, I suppose I must do what I have to do. I just think it's kinda strange for someone who was convicted of Harassment by Telephone to have to drop UA's...am I alone in that thinking?!

On a more positive note, I work tonight. Thank God! I know I've said it before, but I just have to say it again...I absolutely adore my co-workers, and I love my job. I realize that being a delivery driver for Pizza Hut isn't exactly a great career path, but while I'm young, I think it's awesome! :) But yea...I love it when I have to work...dealing with customers and people is something I've always enjoyed. I am thankful for my job!

AND...going even further on that 'positive note', Friday is payday, which means I can finally pay my car insurance up to current, so they'll stop sending me cancellation notices! Now as much as I love my car, I'm kinda jealous of my sister. Her insurance (granted, she is under my parents' policy), is only $108/month for full coverage! But, she also has a 4-door Ford Focus. Me on the other hand, I pay $160/month just for liability, but I suppose I kinda hurt myself when I decided to buy a Firebird. Oh well, it's a great deal of fun! I won't lie...it does feel good to be liberated from my parents in the since that I'm paying for a lot of things on my own, BUT at the same time it sucks. Welcome to adulthood, my parents say. Eh, oh well...once I finish college and get a decent job it'll be easier, right?! ;)

Now, story time! When I bought my Firebird in March, I was still using...a lot. I didn't have any money at all for anything...gas, insurance, tags, etc. I guess having these financial responsibilities that I have, is one thing that has helped me to stay clean. Monthly insurance payments, chipping in for my portion of the phone bill, credit card payments, maintaining two checking accounts with different banks...I just don't have the spare cash TO use anymore if I still WANTED to. Moral of the story-- With responsibility came sobriety. For that, I am thankful.

Take care, everyone.
Josh